Howdy blog! I may or may not be pregnant right now. That’s right: I’m in Baby Limbo.

I’m doing all the right things. Eating pineapple core and Brazil nuts, keeping my feet nice and warm, not over-exercising.

I had my FET last Friday, and it was a breeze. Even easier than last time. The full bladder aspect didn’t even bother me…probably because of that horrible bladder thing that happened to me in the fall of 2017. Once you’ve felt like you have a UTI for 3 straight months, what’s 15 minutes or so of holding in your pee? Nothin’.

THIS is the true hard part…waiting until Sunday for the blood test. And then waiting a couple hours after the blood test to find out if I’m truly pregnant or not.

I have a friend who has had two babies via IVF, and I remembering talking with her as she was waiting for her blood test for baby number two. “It’s harder,” she warned me. I didn’t get it at the time, why would it be harder? You’ve already been successful once! BUT IT IS.

I don’t know, I felt more positive last time, too. More certain. I was certain I was pregnant. And my boobs hurt before the blood test, which made it even more certain. But nothing hurts. No symptoms. I feel exactly the same.

I do have a home pregnancy test in the bathroom that I could test with…but they strongly urge you NOT to do that, because it’s always too early, and you’ll be bound to get a negative and get depressed. I know I didn’t test early last time.

It’s only three days away! Yarrrrrg! What else is new? Well, I have zero work this week, because there have been zero new admissions. Sure, a shitload of SNOW was dumped, enough for school and daycare to be canceled for two days this week, but still…

My boss is quitting. She has two children to support and she can’t make it on these limited hours. It sucks…I really liked her a lot.

It’s been stressing me out. Last night I was trying to put a different spin on it, reminding myself that I’ve had YEARS of spotty work, and what’s the difference this time? And then I remembered. 1000$ a month for daycare. If I’m not working, I’ll have to take him out.

I feel like I’ve given my job a lot of leeway because I keep expected things to pick up, but they just aren’t. I’m going to start looking for another job on Monday, after my mom leaves. By Monday too I’ll be over the Baby Limbo!

My mom is in town! I asked her to come. It’s been great having her here, even if I have been kind of bitchy being in Baby Limbo and all. She’s understanding.

Here’s Bear Schnubs being extra sweet to me while we dogsat Mr. Bennett recently. Silly Cub.

Bennett was a much better houseguest this time around. He only pooped on the carpet ONCE! Woo hoo!

Josh has been filling the hummingbird feeder with nectar and lo and behold, two hummingbirds in the tree in our backyard. Terrible photo, but you get the idea.

Recalling that I did NOT enjoy any kind of scary or “thriller”-type movies the last time I was pregnant, Josh and I went out to the theater and saw “Glass”, which did not disappoint! James McAvoy is SO good. I really believed his character.

Oliver had his 2nd birthday party, at a children’s gym with about 40 guests. Espe is so social!

Guess what? I’m still drinking coffee, too. I just couldn’t give it up this time around. I went one day without it, the day of the transfer, and had a headache most of the day. Boooo. I’m only drinking one baby-approved cup per day.

Okay blog…the computer is running with the speed of molasses and even though I have lots of photos yet to show, I can’t deal with it! Next time I am back here, I’ll either be pregnant or…not! Until then…